only want to be using my body as it’s intended to (exploring nature, eating fruit, kissing, and creating art)
i find it hard to write about the celebration of romantic love. perhaps that’s because most of my experience has been in the destruction and breakdown of romantic love. i’m still trying to figure out the feelings i’m experiencing but i’m looking forward to being able to put them into words.
it’s weird. seeing everyone around me feeling wanted. seeing everyone falling in love. seeing people who i never would have imagined being so outright and forward with their love for someone else. seeing people who i thought were incapable of loving anyone but themselves. it’s weird because i guess i always thought that i’d be one of those people. i thought i would be someone who loved and was loved back but that hasn’t happened, not in a very long time. i feel ready though. i’m ready to embrace whatever, and whoever, comes next.
2/17/20
it’s been two years since i wrote this and i am madly in love now. life comes at you fast.
moments of our lives
“It’s certainly fine to have gigantic goals and achieve success in your life. But in the end, it will have been the little things that truly made you happy. That time at the beach with your first love. Sharing a cup of coffee with an old friend. Enjoying a laugh with your parents. Learning an old family recipe from your Grandmother. Hiking to your favorite thinking spot. Sitting on the front porch watching the sun yield to the beautiful night sky. Yes, it’s those little things you are going to remember.”
—notes to my daughter
[via oldfarmhouse]
if i worked in a court id say "i'll see you in court!" to each of my coworkers at the end of each day until they decided to execute me





